Love, Letting Go
November 1, 2009 
Sometimes I think letting go is one of the most difficult things to do, or at least it seems that way at the time.
I recently realized something, what exactly is it that we hold onto?
Let’s talk marriage.
We are all taught growing up that marriages should be forever. Why?
What happened to change? What happened to being happy? Why stay in a marriage if you are miserable? For the sake of the kids?
Nah. Look at your marriage. Are you truly happy? If you have to think more then a minute on that question I can almost bet your not.
Then the question is Why are you holding on? Is it because you love that person, truly love that person, or can it be that you are just use to that
person. Use to having them around to help out in some way shape or form. Whether it be financially, around the house, with the kids, etc.
How many of us are truly happy with our mates?
I recently realized, well, maybe not so recently, that I am far from happy in my marriage, and frankly I haven’t been in a VERY long time.
Recently though I realized, I DESERVE to be happy.
If the person we are with isn’t making us happy, or even trying to right some wrongs, then consider all the options you have in life.
The option to walk away. The option to be happy. The option to let it go.
A friend of mine told me a while back, that when people get married they sometimes forget that they are still individuals. That they forget that they still have the option to be free.
I have to say, I took that to heart.
Over the last couple of years my marriage has progressively gotten worse.
This year, I decided to stop fighting a losing battle, and have decided for my children’s sake and for mine, that the best thing to do is to finally just let go.
Be happy.
Find happiness within myself.
Find the independence I need to be able to move on.
I have to tell you it has been a very enlightening experience for me.
The day you wake up and realize that the relationship you once fought for is actually toxic for you, it’s an eye opening experience.
Saying goodbye is going to be a walk in the park.
Because I know, I deserve better.
Because I know, love isn’t supposed to feel that way.
I know, because I am finally truly loved.
That’s an interesting twist.
Love.
Wow.
Absolute.
Unconditional.
Untarnished.
Amazing.
Beautiful.
Love.
